1st Weigh In of the Summer Challenge!

Sorry, a few days late ... image was taken Saturday evening, tsk tsk - I know!



Down 2 pounds, I'll take it. :)

Here's to a GREAT week!

Smoking and school =(

Seriously I need some advice here.

I smoked nearly 18 years, quit for 4 and over the past 5-6 months have been smoking again. Mind you, before I was smoking a pack a day, and now I'm smoking approx 10 a day. But I seem to be smoking more and more as the days go by. Pack lasted me for 4-5 days, now it's 3 days if I'm lucky ... I very MUCH want to stop, and every pack is the last ... if you catch my drift. One excuse after another I have ... I desperately want to run more, right now, I'm lucky if I can run for 5 minutes at a time, I DO blame it on the smoking.

I remember when I stopped the last time, just out of the blue (as cliche as it may sound) I felt soooo much better! Why is it so difficult this time? I'm on anti-depressants due to some emotional issues (unhealthy relationship had ended, lost my home, good job, etc, etc), Ok, maybe I just answered my own question ... or is that just another excuse? I'm trying to lose the weight I've gained as well, so again - I use the lighting up as an excuse, my 'having a puff' instead of something to munch on, do you know what I mean?

I hate the well it smells, my God, I feel ashamed for starting again.

I'm running out of time already, but have to comment on the Nursing course I'm taking ... in short, it's actually a 'CCA' course, 'continuing care assistant' and while I very much want to be in a profession where I'm helping others, I just cannot see myself doing the 'perennial care' of it. (Washing genitals, etc) in a nursing home. Doesn't make me a bad person, I just don't feel comfortable with it. Our placement (job shadowing) isn't for another 2 months, yet I DREAD the day it comes because I'm not at all interested.

Why'd I decide to take it? Well, several reasons. Financial security, a better life for me and my kids and so on ... but to be honest, it didn't interest me from the beginning, but it's paid for (high demand in the area) and we're guaranteed a full-time job in the end in a nursing home. THAT I DO NOT WANT. I realize I'll be able to work in the Rehab, for the VON as well as group homes ... those ARE of interest, but not the nursing home atmosphere.

I'll post more about it at a later time, just wanted to get it off my chest. :(

Summer Challenge!

Yay! My first weight loss challenge ... and boy do I need the motivation! Thankfully, I do feel ready. :) I have to admit, that today wasn't the greatest start, but it was a holiday here and I wanted to enjoy the day without worry, so I don't feel guilty at all.

I started my day off with a coffee (guilty vice, one that I've really no intentions on ever giving up!) but it's with milk and only one sugar, again, I feel no shame!

However ... I did drink 2 beer today while playing washer toss in the sun ... o well.

Supper was great, a healthy, low fat, low cal Chicken Enchilada and small fruit salad without anything added.

I hate to admit it, but I'm up a pound and half since last week - but I'm confident all will work out, also, no exercise today aside from the washer toss.

Alright, the scale image I'm hating to show for all to see! (I know, they look dirty LOL)



Challenge Goals

1. To lose 25 pounds. (Will bring me down to 145lbs and at a safe 2lb a week loss!)
2. Strength train twice a week regularly.
3. Follow and comment on at least 3 other participates weekly.
4. Post at least one picture and recipe of a meal I've prepared weekly.

5. HAVE FUN AND ENJOY IT!

5 pounds!

Not sure how I managed to pull this off, but kudos to me anyway. :) I knew I had a good week (with the eating for sure) not as much exercise as I would've liked, but anyway. I'm happy.

18 pounds to go by my birthday ... though I hope that isn't too much of a goal.

Got rid our Husky today. :( I figured it would be for the best, as she spends her days in a kennel and we just haven't the time and/or energy some days. She's gone to a great family, so I feel OK about it. One of my sons isn't very impressed though, but I'm hoping that despite the fact he's not please, he at least understands. We've still a Maltese, though he doesn't have the same energy as the larger dog - which actually, makes things a little easier. Anyway. I'll leave that for tomorrow as I'm in a hurry now and just wanted to post my weight loss!